LOOK OUT BEHIND YOU!!

no not at all. the only family member who i consider a friend is my sister.


in truth i cannot stand my mother at times.

but meh she's my mom, so i gotta love her.

*shudders* i've just had the most weird scariest dreams i've ever had.


one was with my adopted mommy and her 2 youngest along with my mom and me.. and a tornado... and me saving my computer and the stuffed panda i've had since i was like 2 or 3...


and the other? whooo boy.something about a family of like 9 children going through this heavily guarded building to save one of their own, and my person was like the black sheep or something and everyone was accusing me of trying to get rid of the family, and in the end i ended up (first killing a dog that was gonna squeal on us... and was trying to chew off my neck, which oddly enough i didn't feel... ) and then giving myself up to save the others. and by giving myself up, i mean basically killing my body and having my spirit be taken and shown where all the other children (and there were a LOT of children) go to be "harvested"


and then i woke up.



it was fucked up.


and i kinda wanna write a short story based on it... *shrugs* lets see if maybe i can....

hmmmm.. gotta go with prisoner of azkaban.

simply because i've read it so many times more then any of her other books *nods*

welllllll....

I LOVE the rain

one of my favourite foods is broccoli

I used to play the Viola



MY LOCATION LIIIIIESSSSSS

300 gold short on getting my flying lesson


1300 and getting the USEFUL flying lesson


/sigh


and i'm bored.


and sad because there was no new one piece chapter this week :(


but hey brook/usopp icon FTW

Humans. here. fucking. piss. me. off!!!!

so me and aly went to walmart.

in leeseburg. big mistake.


some BITCH decided to be a well.. bitch. and while i was waiting for the parade of her family to go by the aisle i was in, gave me a dirty look and STARED at me. so i gave her one back and she decided to try and pick a fight with me. i walked off and told aly bout it.


well not five mons later the bitch was back and she rammed her cart into ours and AGAIN tried to pick a fight.

me and aly ignored her and went to pay for our stuff, and aly said loud enough for the bitch to hear her, "ignorant" and the bitch was like "oh no she didn't!" and her boyfriend was all like calm down...


but srlsy people. WHAT THE HELL.


damn friggen ignorant people!

over clasped fingers i stared at the little skinny nobody who dared to question my authority

"but ma'am, millions would die!"

like i cared. i mean really, in the long run we will become a stronger race. the good of the many outweigh the lives of the few. a million here, a million there. when our population is in the billions, it means nothing.

"proceed with the attack, i do not answer to you."

she sighs, but finally leaves me in peace.


peace, what this whole war is over. some damn peace this is.


"really, now, that was harsh"

oh great now my conscious is here. JUST what i needed today.

"fuck off james, i don't need your crap too."

"aww Kat, that's mean. i'm only looking out for your best interests!"

"don't call me that! only she is allowed that privilege and you know it! what do you want anyway? you're supposed to be over looking the preparations"

"i just came to see who you were embarrassing now. everyone is worried about you, yanno? you've changed since this whole thing started."

"yeah well, circumstances change, and i shall go with it and make my plans to fit."

he puts his hand on my shoulder and i lean into this small embrace.

"just don't forget what we are here for dear.."

"never."


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.. start of a story perhaps? i dunno, should i continue it?

(title taken from an interview with Garth nix <3 )

hmmm... probably Haruhi Fujioka form Ouran High school host club.

we both don't have a lot on money, not very "pretty", don't dress like girls, one parent, and are surrounded by people who are more fortunate then ourselves.

minus out the being surrounded by super cute guys, and we are the same.

also Spock from star trek *nods* being surrounded by illogical humans, being half breeds (I'm Italian, German, Irish, French Canadian, and 2 unknown great grandparents. ) and we have no wish to command, although we could.



and Drum from Shades children *nods* we are not always what we seem.

DISCLAIMER: well duuuh i don't own it, other wise pell, iceburg, Paulie and all the other minor characters would get more screen time... and there would be yaoi. lots of it. and yuri. and the characters would actually die... but i am rambling now lol</p>

oh and this is un beta'd!

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I stayed in water seven. I wanted to leave so bad, but he was here. And he needed me, so I stayed.

I can still hear the laughter all of us shared, it echoes in these walls. Each day hurting a little more then the last, Toms gone, and it's all my fault. And yet it's like he is still here.

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave

Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

I didn't mean to hurt him, to hurt Tom. but I did. It's all my fault. That's why I went after him, tried my hardest to bring back Tom, bring back the smile in his eyes. He'd done so much for me, helped raise me, and all I did was hurt him, and betray him. I had to do something to right this.

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

He'd been there, no matter what I did. I still created those damn battle Franky's. those damn weapons. And still he'd be by my side.

Once I messed up really bad. Sliced open my palm. He just held me until I stopped crying and fixed up my hand.

I saw him cry the day that they took Tom from us. I didn't know what to do. When we were alone, I just reached up and put my hand to his face, and pulled him into a hug, before running after Tom.

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

I remember when I first saw him. He was working on a don of a ship. The light glistened of his back, and I knew then I wanted to work with him, to be near him. That's when I found Tom and asked him to take me in.

I used to have nightmares of when my parents threw me off the ship, and on those night he would take me in the bed with him and I would hold onto his shirt and just cry. He brought out the vulnerable side of me, and protected me. No matter what I had done wrong that day, he was always there for me.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light

Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

Years have gone by since that terrible day. As i walked up to his office, I wondered, would he take me back? I had failed to bring Tom back to us. I had left him alone all this time. What would i do if he turned me away?

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

You turned me away at the door. But met me at the old workshop, you gave me that blasted blueprint. Trusted in me not to make it.

4 years later you die to protect that damnable thing. And me.

I couldn't believe it, there was no way that you died! You're made of stronger stuff. Why did I stay here. Why did I not take your advice and run away with the blueprint. Once again I put your life at risk, and this time you died.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

I was so happy to find out you were alive, I knew you were okay, I was afraid to be wrong, but I still felt it deep in my heart that you were still here, still with me.

I'm sorry I have to leave now, I want to stay with you, but these dummy kids need me. When all of this is over and done with, I'll sail the Sunny back to you, and we can sit and drink, and just enjoy each others company.

Please wait for me.

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please review and tell me how to improve!

........

tinky.


i named everything that.

ha ha first post! ^.^ lol!

okay. well, where to start...?

my name is Brittannie. that seems like a good start. ^.^

i'm bisexual, and have a habit of sticking my nose in where it doesn't belong, which gets me into trouble a lot of times.

don't let me get bored... seriously. i start doing things that 'causes other people stress, but keeps me entertained. ^.^

i'm very protective of my best friend.... who i also am in love with.

i'm a trekkie, BIG time. have been since i was at least a year old. ( watched it all the time with my mom.)

i love slash.

spock/mccoy is my favorite pairing at the moment (again actually.. i go back and forth between pairings/shows)

i love anime.
i love firefly/serenity
Joss Whedon is god.
so is Gene Roddenberry.
instead of using complete sentences, i write how i think... which involves a lot of "..."

i can be hyper, though i prefer not to.

i suffer from insomnia a lot.

night is better than day.

can't.sentence.properly.

i like to be random.

i am a fangirl, and i do use Japanese words. BUT i am trying to learn the language on my own, so it's not like " teme no baka kawaii neko" kinda thing.... although i use teme no baka a lot... -.-"

i am trying to work on my spelling, which has never been my strong point.

reading is my life.
writing is my hobby.
drawing is my solace.
acting is my soul.

i can't sing, in my own humble opinion, but that doesn't stop me from doing it.

i have a girly voice, though to me it sounds different.

i hate my voice.

i am not pretty by any standards.

the only nice thing about my physical features is my eyes.

i have the best "boo boo"/"puppy dog" face ever.

been using it for years, and i get what i need from it.

i don't like asking for anything, i prefer getting it on my own, usually by working.

i dislike my family a lot, but i still love them.

same goes for them ^.^.

my best friends have all moved away, so the internet is my social life.

i am home-schooled.

i plan to go to college and major in psychology and minor in game design.

i am intelligent, but don't like to show off.

i hate being a straight A student, so I'm not.

homework needs to die a painful death.

i love tests.

I do well on tests.

I love my pets.

i want a ferret.

badly.


i love dogs.

i have cats, and love them too.... when i don't have to give them baths @.@

i have a big family.

I hate children.

i love them too.

just make sure they aren't spoiled brats, or very naughty.



well that's all for now ^.^ and i hope to be posting a lot more these days...